Why did I go natural?

Well, I have been pondering this for a while now and it was a combination of things.

1. My hair wasn't as full as it used to be. ( I later came to see this as my own personal perception after viewing some of my before pics.)

2. My hair was breaking at an alarming rate.

3. My scalp became even more sensitive than before after years of putting perm in my hair.(As stated by doctor)

4. My doctor actually told me to stop putting it in a ponytail and to give it a break and wear it down
(a) Due to the advice to wear it down (which I hate by the way) (b) Gave up and decided to just cut the bloody thing off

5. I had no idea what my hair texture was... I never had to deal with it.

6. Wanted a change. I began to see natural hair as beautiful and versatile


Reactions to my hair choice:
Even though I have rocked a Halle Berry hair cut before and had my hair extremely short that the barber, my hair and I had a special relationship… Everyone was so shocked and stated “I just can’t imagine you with short hair.” What kinda crap is that? I have had short hair before… Yes, granted it was relaxed but it was still short. Few reactions:
-“So you are doing this for what exactly?”
- “Why are you going natural?”
- "Don’t ever wear your hair out like that again!!" (When I rocked my hair after my BC)
- “When are you going to perm your hair back?”
- “What the hell is that?”
- “What is wrong with your hair?”

Honestly, wasn’t too sure what to expect but that wasn’t it. Where I live there are a lot of people with natural hair but I never thought that they would take it like that. With that episode where and older lady began taunting in a sing song voice “Nappy head” over and over again (don't worry I will get over it soon). These things are not what I expected so I plopped back on my wig.

Feelings:
Normally I am not that concerned about public opinion but I felt so distraught with the reactions. Honestly I find that I started to obsess about the look, feel and texture of my hair. I became concerned that something was wrong with it. I mean with so many other sporting bald heads, afros and plaits… Why is my twa so offensive? But in the end you just can't please everyone and at some point I'll just have to get over it and try to remember that this is something that I wanted to do. Until then got to get some hater blockers and work on the courage.